Patience of a remote control

"Patience is a virtue" Ugh, I hate that phrase!!!

Or, maybe I hate that I need more of it... 

 

I've always used an analogy for my patience, or should I say lack there of. You know when you start a movie and have the opportunity to select a scene on the menu? Well let me just tell you how amazing my life would be if I had that! I would love to be able to go and take a sneak peak on where I would be in my life in say, 5 years. Wouldn't that be amazing if you could just skip or fast forward through a rough time? Or pause or even rewind when something amazing happens?? (I've had this view long before the movie "Click", I think they stole it from me ;))

 

Now let me clue you in on a few things that never crossed my mind that would require patience. I have no idea where I dreamed up what I thought was a no brainer check off list to complete in less than a month...

1. Buy a car,
2. Find a job
3. Make new friends (my age/stage of life)
4. Get connected in a Community Group
5. Rent an apartment/place to live
6. ........
7. ........

Funny how EVERYTHING on that list is still unchecked... maybe God's showing me that I don't really know what I'm talking about, that I don't really know what's best for me? I guess I still need to learn about that thing called "letting go, and letting God". But then that thing called patience comes back into play. I'm not patient enough to just sit and give up my control. I want things to go my way, after all, I know best, right???

Hmmm...NOPE, definitely not.

 

I went from working 3 jobs, being a youth leader and full time student...then I moved...

BAM!!!!

It's like I'm starting all over again. I have a wonderful and amazing support system here as well as family and friends back in California. Goodness, I had no idea what I was getting myself into, which is probably a good thing or I wouldn't have trusted that God had a plan.

 

Now that I'm here, I wouldn't change a thing! Everything that I've gone through has brought me here. It is very hard being in this place right now, but the cool thing is that I know that I'm where I'm supposed to be, even if it isn't easy. It's encouraging to know that there are people who have walked the same walk. Actually, there are so many people that I know and run into here that moved from California. They all have a similar story, similar feelings, and a similar outlook on life. I just wish that things could speed up and that I could start crossing things of my list already! ...and there it is again! I'm brought back to that thought that "I (still) DON'T have it under control!"  That's where I'm going to stop, and be S.T.I.L.L..............

 

"Be still in the presence of the Lord,

and wait patiently for him to act..."

...{Psalm 37:7}...