One sentence at a time

I don't really know what I'm writing, but I know that I need to write and process. So I pray that God would give me words to speak, not only for my own desire to process, but to also be an encouragement.

It's the simple things in life that I absolutely love- sitting outside listening to the birds chirp their little hearts out across the tree tops, watching young squirrels chase each other down in the yard without a worry or plan, and the subtle lightening bugs practicing in the dusk ligh for their late night rave. But it's these kind of days where the emotions are raw, the stress is high, and peace is in reach. This is where reality becomes clear that even when you choose to be joyful, it's not always easy.

I keep getting lost in the thoughts, the memories, the stories of the past several months. It's these rocky moments when I am aware of where I came from, knowing that I don't really know where I'm going. I bought a one way ticket here, but what does that mean comes next on this journey. The journey is where I learn, where I stumble and fall, where I cry, where I ask "why?"...but also where I smile, where I roll on the floor in laughter, where I rejoice, where I KNOW that I am going to be all right.

So much is up in the air, but when does God say that everything needs to be resting comfortably on the ground? Who knows what is on the next page of this crazy chapter, but all I can do is read one sentence at a time.

Matthew 6:33-35 (MSG)

"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. "Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.