A Daily Choice

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This week has been full of

discovering, thinking, and conviction

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As I sit and write, I can't help but notice the simple blessings I have around me. The "popcorn" trees morphing into lush green foliage, the feeling of the cool breeze as it gently blows through the sheer curtain framing the window, and the sound of the bright red cardinal as they rejoice in the day they have been given.

 

Two weeks ago, I sat in this same place, wondering,

"Why am I here?"

Am I ever going to get a job?"

Did I make a mistake in coming?"

What is my purpose in being here...?"  

What in the world was I thinking moving across the country?"

 

 

But today is different. I know I'm here for a reason. I am confident that God is going to use me in ways that I can't even imagine. I have a choice to respond when God calls me to serve. All too often I look over the opportunities and then wonder why God isn't using me. Maybe he's trying, but I'm just to wrapped up in myself to realize.

 

Throughout the past week, I've been thinking about God's timing. It's been so hard trying to balance the desire for a job, and then being available for those around me who are suffering. As I wait for that one email that could change my future, I wonder if this is the time to take a job. In my head I had a plan of what I thought my job would be like, but God may show me another route that will take me further than I ever thought possible.

 

Joseph Campbell said,

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"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned,

so as to have the life that is waiting for us."

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I feel that sometimes we get so caught up in "THE JOB", or "THE MONEY" when we should be having faith that God will provide.

 

It's amazing how often I am reminded that there is a bigger purpose for my life than just "existing". Constantly, I am searching for how I can be used. I get frustrated when a job doesn't go through...but why? As I look back at all the doors that I wanted to walk through, I realize how different my life would be if I had. There is no way I would be where I'm at, waiting to hear back on an amazing job opportunity. Yes, I worry about the reality that this too may not be the job. But I would hate to look back months from now and see how I didn't allow God to work in my life.

 

I don't have the ability to see the whole picture. I'm still learning to trust that God's plan for me is far more intricately designed than I could ever imagine. So now, finally, I can go on throughout my day, trusting, knowing that I will be taken care of- even if it's not the way I imagined, because I have chosen to have faith and commit to HIS way. But I also realize that each morning, I have the choice to live in my own little world, or to trust that God will act.

 

Today I choose to trust that God will open doors in his timing.

 

"Commit your way to the LORD;

trust in him, and he will act."

{Psalm 37:5}