Valley Between Two Hills

I always dislike the feeling of trying to stop myself as I am gaining speed coming down a hill - getting to a point where my legs can't and won't move at the frightening speed I'm traveling! Why is the phrase "It's all down hill from here" used in a positive way? It's simply a faceplant waiting to happen! Just when I feel like I am steadying my stride, there is a change in pace.

The job that I desired finally comes along,
then I am stuck wondering "where to next."

I get started on a role of doing my morning devotion, 

then I don't have the passion anymore.

I finally meet and am surrounded by amazing, fun, and accepting people, 

then I dwell in the lies and insecurities that I thought were long gone.

What's wrong with me?

Is it really that hard to simply be content?

Either I'm trudging up a hill, or I'm falling down on the other side. In both circumstances, I am in need of someone there holding my hand, reassuring me that I'm NEVER alone.

Isaiah 41:10
Don’t be afraid, because I am with you.
Don’t be intimidated; I am your God.
I will strengthen you.
I will help you.
I will support you with my victorious right hand.

Each and every day, I have to choose whether or not I'm going to trust and KNOW that God has a plan, or if I'm going to worry that I don't know what's ahead. Looking from an outsider's perspective it seems like such an easy decision to make, but why in the world do some people (especially myself) get caught up in worrying!?

Philippians 4:6-7

Don’t worry about anything; 

instead, pray about everything. 

Tell God what you need, 

and thank him for all he has done. 

Then you will experience God’s peace, 

which exceeds anything we can understand. 

His peace will guard your hearts and minds 

as you live in Christ Jesus.